Hello Solids

Finally some real food! Well as you may have guessed I have made it through to eating real food just in time for my first fill this Thursday…yikes. Things are going much smoother now. It is nice to be able to actually chew my food instead of just swallowing it. I am still having some trouble gauging my portion sizes. My mind definitely thinks that I can eat more than my stomach does. Even when I am starving I will grab a normal (well my normal) portion of food and end up only eating a few bites then I am done. I think it is really going to take some time for my mind to catch up with my stomach. I have experimented with bread and luckily, or unluckily depending on how you look at it, I have not had any issues. I almost hoped that I would be one of those people that couldn’t eat bread without throwing it back up because that would keep me away from it. But no, for right now I have no issues not even a little pain or discomfort; that all may very well change when I get my first fill so we will see. I have started exercising again and that has been nice. For as much as I wanted to go back to the gym I am having a hard time staying motivated every day to go. I am thinking that it is just like when I first started working out… hard for the first few weeks then gets easier.

My weight is bouncing back between a pound every day it seems like. This was to be expected and I haven’t let it bother me too much. I am really trying not to focus so much on the scale as I do other things like how my clothes fit. Speaking of my clothes I am now officially able to take off my “jeans right out of the dryer” without unbuttoning them!!! They are getting pretty baggy and after one wear I have to wash and dry again because otherwise I look a little silly with baggy bottoms. I am not complaining one bit but I am also not ready to go out and buy new clothes yet. I don’t want to spend a lot of money just to wear something for a while and then have to buy new again(I am thinking positive here) So until these jeans literally fall off my body with no help I am just going to have to deal with baggy pants. I have received a lot of compliments from people that I work with about how they can see a difference already so that is encouraging as well.

I am getting a little scared for my first fill on Friday. It is such a guessing game as to how much to fill it and the worst that can happen is they fill too much and I end up throwing up. I do not take this lightly because as you may have been able to tell I HATE throwing up. To help my doctor understand how much he needs to put in I have had to write down everything I have been eating, my exercise amount and my weight everyday for a week before my fill. I am not taking any chances so I am writing EVERYTHING down. I have just a few more days of solids before I have to go back to liquids for a short time so I am enjoying it while I can. Lots of chicken and vegetables in my diet but it is not so bad when you haven’t had it for a long time. I will update more after my appointment on Thursday to let you all know how it goes.